Surrendering in Sex~~
Sex is the most vulnerable state women and men find themselves in. I am naked. All of my bodily flaws will be visible. I am raw. You will see everything I need from you and the games I play to get it. I am judged. You will compare me to every other girl. But you will also compare me to this image you have of your perfect woman. Can I come close to attaining it? I am transparent. You can see through all of me. And to achieve full surrender I must trust you’ll see my beauty. That you’’ll feel my power. And trust that I can fully surrender to you. That you will be able to receive it. That you’’ll be able to see it. That you’ll feel the magic when two souls completely intertwine. And that means that you have to love you. So that you are able to see me. And know that I see you. You are naked. I will see no bodily flaws. You are raw. I can see that you really don’t need anything from me. You are not judged. I see the perfection in all that you are. There is nothing to attain. You are perfect…just as you are. You are transparent. I can see through all of you. And I can see that you are radiantly beautiful.
Fully surrendered sex is the sex where you both fully surrender into trust and love and let all of your walls down. That’s when I had my mind absolutely blown. I had orgasms that were so intense I could barely remember where I was because all I felt was source running through my body. And I had a lot of them…in a row. So many, I commonly lost count. Because when you are fully surrendered no one is keeping score. I felt a kind of love that is simply indescribable. Until you’ve experienced it. And then it’’ like, “Oh my God!” The intensity can’t be measured. It feels purely magical. Like, holy sh*t, this can’t be real? If it was, why wouldn’’t everyone be doing this? Why would women not want to have orgasms like this? Why would women not want to feel love like this? Why would men not want this woman? Why would men not want these kind of orgasms? Why would men not want to feel love like this? Because at the end of the day, don’t we all just want to be loved? Loved fully. Appreciated for who we are when we take our masks off. Loved for just being us. In all our perfect imperfection.
That’s when it became crystal clear. Yes, we want that. But we are scared of the road to get there. That means I have to look myself in the mirror. I have to face who I’ve become. I have to be willing to shed my demons…not conquer them. I have to be willing to feel every negative emotion I’ve been so desperately running away from…fully feel it. Until there is simply nothing. Left. To. Feel. Until I’ve taken it to zero. I had to take every single layer to zero. That’s when you’ll be able to look in the mirror and see you. You are naked. You have no bodily flaws. You are raw. You know that you don’t need anything…from anyone. You are not judged. You see the perfection in all that you are. You have nothing to attain. You are perfect…just as you are. You are transparent. You can see through all that you were and all you really are. And you can finally see you are radiantly beautiful. Just as you are.
And then you can prepare to have your mind-blown. When you finally find that special someone who can love you the way that you love you. Because that’s exactly the way they love themselves.~